Blogs & Poems

I did not recognise him, I could not recognise him That monster in the mirror This broken man, what a terrifying spectacle That monster in the mirror A shadow of himself, a decaying mess That monster in the mirror I knew it was me, but how could it be? That I was the monster in the mirror

The dark thoughts inside my head make me wish that I was dead Piece by piece I try to pull it all together, piece by piece, thread by thread The dark thoughts inside my head make me wish that I was dead Thank you for the kind words you said, I keep them close to me during the battles with my head Yeah those thoughts inside my head can be tough And those times are always rough And I feel very lucky I can nip it in the bud, and declare enough is enough

I'm becoming the best version of myself Every single day I'm becoming the best version of myself No matter what you say I'm becoming the best version of myself I'm becoming the best version of myself It's tough, and I'm often in pain I'm becoming the best version of myself Things are never gonna be the same again I'm becoming the best version of myself And sometimes I'll go through complete hell I'm becoming the best version of myself Until my story is an inspiring one to tel

For every soul who can't be here today I'll keep the flame lit for you For all those people denied those extra years I'll keep the fire burning for you For every person that didn't get that extra chance I'll make this life mean something, for you For every person who now lives in memory You're never forgotten, and I'll keep the flame alive in my heart, so that you may live on

Suddenly I don't feel so worried Suddenly I don't feel so scared Suddenly I don't feel the weight of the world Suddenly I don't feel physically impaired Suddenly there is balance in my life Suddenly I feel warmth and serenity Suddenly I am free of trouble and strife Suddenly I am free from obscenity

I'm a stranger in a far away land And this is not home, but neither was my home Cause I have no home, I simply roam I'm a stranger in a far away land Mr. Lost & Found, with his head stuck in the clouds And I could disappear without a memory or a sound I'm a stranger in a far away land Happy and terrified, but I'm glad I tried and did not hide, in the safety of the home I used to reside

If you don't like me that's cool, this ain't school, fuck you all, I won't stall, I'll keep going and going till I'm above you all - yeah that's right, I'll be standing tall! If you don't like me, I couldn't care less, I must profess, I must confess, your life is a mess, and your opinion is pointless - something I won't address If you don't like me, it ain't nothing new, join the queue, join the zoo, join every other person who doesn't have a clue

Shut up! Close your mouth! Turn on your brain and silence yourself Stop talking! You have nothing to say You're wasting oxygen with your childish babble Nobody cares! Except for your group Laughing along and playing their part, with no conviction and no heart Silence! Your words drive me crazy! Nothing you say has any meaning! You're stuck in your bubble with all your fellow idiots, and everyone outside is tortured with your drizzle

You can't get upset when your feet get wet When life throws you difficulties or a series of threats You can't get scared when there are those who have dared To challenge you, to punish you, to mock all that you do But you can't sit in silence and endure the violence Both physical and mental, it doesn't matter, wounds heal, but the real danger is the latter And you can't be weak, even if the pain reaches its peak You gotta push through this crazed, insane zoo

I'm scared, I'll admit it I'm scared, I won't deny it I fear what's coming My body is numbing And life does not wait, to me it keeps summoning I'm scared, I don't know what to do I'm scared, I'm worried I won't pull through And every day is scarier than the last And I cannot help but worry about my past I'm scared, worried that I'll fall even more I'm scared, petrified for those I adore The feelings turn me into a useless shell And I inadvertently cause my own personal hell